fashion trend update

the maxi dresses are back!

 

being wrong

....but i hate being wrong
....i fear being wrong

clark trip

cheska forcing a smile for the camera. good thing we came prepared. this was taken around 7:00 a.m.(we got in at 6:30ish). there were still a few balloons taking off or getting ready to take off and we got lucky we made it before the balloons left. it would be such a bummer if we didn't.

more photo updates soon!

You have lost me forever

 

did i mention that i'm a huge fan of

vampire diaries? especially damon?

you do realize that

if i fell

 

i have a reader

an anonymous reader sent me a message and wanted me to comment about angelo reyes. i am actually surprised that i even have a reader/s out there and a little embarrassed to be honest. this blog is a personal journal and created to inspire myself, my family, and people who can relate. this is not intended to impress anyone. i am not the know-it-all-type. i don't even write very well for crying out loud. i have become addicted to blogging because i have noticed that blogging can be an art. apparently, not all bloggers are geeks.

but, since it was requested, let me just say this, a person will only take his own life because he has a sick brain to begin with. he did it because he was ashamed of what he did, felt extreme guilt, lost his way, victimized, and most of all an embarrassment and burden to his family eventually. all these emotional feelings mixed up altogether made his brain release some sort of a "suicide hormone". he was too brave actually and did not fear death. it was a sad day for his family and that's all i can say. i do feel sorry he felt there was no way out. 

Lately

I've been posting a lot of quotes and photos inspiration from the net and haven't really blogged about my weekly activities or life in general except when there are occasions like birthdays and stuff. Nothing really much exciting to say. I am not fully so open here because there are a few people who knows about this blog and I may say things that are inappropriate or hurt their feelings because I think I have a tendency to offer unsolicited advice and suggest things that are not applicable to them. So mostly I would post outer inspirations that help me express what I really feel, what I was going through at the time. I don't know how I could have explained it better or eloquently without using these quotes because for obvious reasons I have grammar flaws

What I wish for myself is to be able to write about something genuinely good and happy. My current state is not so good so how do I share a little bit of what I wish for? hmm that's a problem. So instead, I linger on possibilities, wanting new things, simple things like new bedsheets, new rug, new bag, new dress, new jeans, skirt, a camera, new lipstick, a necklace, and all fancy things. Am i materialistic? I don't know, maybe I am or maybe I'm just a woman who enjoys these things. If i was rich I would probably wish for bigger things. I am always living in my head. Dreaming. 

 

I need this reminder. I need to tell me that my life is beautiful. 

If I want to change it, then what's stopping me?

Cheer up!

 

Birthday Girl

how time flies!
my dear sweet, smart, and lovely little girl turned 8 today. 
it only seems like yesterday when i first saw your chubby cheeks 
and look at you now.
every year on her birthday, i always intend to give her what she deserves
because she's been a very well behaved, funny pretty girl
who we love so much. 
soon she will be all grown up and won't need me as much.
Happy Birthday my dear Saskia Francesca
We love you so very much!
You are always beautiful everyday, sweetie! 

 from left: agatha, cheska, larence( her classmate) 

and the cute little 3 years old joshua

this time on the left is jaimee- who is sick, naomi at the back,
and baby beatrix and alyssa.

and of course, with her lovely mom. ehem.

i am still contemplating on throwing a big party for her
because she has not had a "real" party since she was small.
last time we gave her one was when she was 4 years old and only a few came.
i hope i can plan it better next time.

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i guess i have been thinking too much (as always of course). you can tell by the entries of my posts. these are things that come to mind when i need to let out and let go, and it's nice to have this place where i can do that.  i' wonder if it has anything to do with my hormones. when i am not in front of my laptop, most times, everything sounds so much more organized and better in my head, but the minute i start typing it i get lost for words and ideas for no reason.

and today is just one of them.

pause...

and so,  instead, 

i would like to end this post with a song i like since high school. what can i say? i am a sentimental girl with sentimental taste.