Come home

 

Hello world, hope you're listening 

Forgive me if I’m young or speaking out of turn 

 But there’s someone I've been missing  

And I think that they could be the better half of me

They’re in the wrong place tryin' to make it right  
But I'm tired of justifying
 
So I say to you
come home, come home
  'Cause I’ve been waiting for ya for so long, for so long  
And right now there's a war between the vanities
But all I see is you and me  
And the fight for you is all I've ever known  
So come home

I get lost in the beauty of everything I see  
The world ain’t half as bad as they paint it to be  
If all the sons and all the daughters stop to take it in
Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin
It might start now, yeah Or maybe I'm just dreaming out loud

But until then
 come home, come home  
'Cause I’ve been waiting for ya for so long, for so long  
And right now there's a war between the vanities  
But all I see is you and me
And the fight for you is all I've ever known, ever known  
So come home, ooh

Everything I can’t be is everything you should be  
And that’s why I need you here  
Everything I can’t be is everything you should be  
And that’s why I need you here
 
So hear this now, come home, come home  
'Cause I’ve been waiting for ya for so long, for so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities  
But all I see is you and me  
And the fight for you is all I've ever known, ever known  
So come home, 
come home

My Immortal

I have always loved this song.

such good lyrics and melody.

you lost me

i am not a big fan of pop music/artist so much as i did when i was 10,
but of course there are also some pop songs i enjoy listening to.
it's just not the genre i would have on my music list.

few days ago while watching youtube, i happen to listen to
christina aguillera's "you lost me".
i wouldn't normally bother to listen to her songs
but the title was intriguing so i checked it out.

and since then the song pretty much got stuck in my head.

i was amazed is all i can say.

brighter than sunshine

"Brighter Than Sunshine"

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine

I got a feeling in my soul ...

need you now

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I just need you now.

Oh baby I need you now.

 NEED YOU NOW official video 

Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time
These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye 
This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time 
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand
This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

Untitled

i guess i have been thinking too much (as always of course). you can tell by the entries of my posts. these are things that come to mind when i need to let out and let go, and it's nice to have this place where i can do that.  i' wonder if it has anything to do with my hormones. when i am not in front of my laptop, most times, everything sounds so much more organized and better in my head, but the minute i start typing it i get lost for words and ideas for no reason.

and today is just one of them.

pause...

and so,  instead, 

i would like to end this post with a song i like since high school. what can i say? i am a sentimental girl with sentimental taste.

Almost Lover

oh oh i want some more

 

this song has been on my mind since christmas!

Music and Me

Music has always been a big part of my life. When I was younger I was surrounded by music and music lovers - my brothers, my cousins, and the person who influenced me the most, my dad. Those who know me know that my dad was a wonderful singer and I inherited a little bit of that talent. I grew up listening to 1950s and '60s music. My dad would listen so loudly and repeatedly all throughout the day to Frank Sinatra, Perry Como, and Dean Martin and I would get so embarrassed because my neighbors could hear them. In the '80s, my cousins and brothers were my biggest influence. They were into pop and jazz and I grew up listening to their music too but I don't know why I didn't like it as much or felt excited listening to these genres. I chose to listen to New Wave and appreciated the sound in a much more profound way. This was also the time where I started to practice a lot of singing- mostly in the bathroom just like my dad. My type of music geared towards Alternative Rock during the '90s. The only radio station specifically played this genre was NU107. I listened to The Smiths, New Order, Siouxie, and the Banshees, Morrissey, Gene Loves Jezebel, The Cranberries, Stone Temple Pilots, etc.. My brothers didn't like hearing much of it. Maybe hated it even. Although my taste for music was different, I still adored listening to all sorts. I sang a lot growing up. I went to sleep with the radio on, awoke still with the radio on. Not a day passed without music in my head literally because I had a radio cassette player placed above my head in my bed.

After college my love for music took a hiatus because my life changed. I became a mom. A very young mother. The whole obsession for loud music became difficult to do. I no longer had the time to sing as much as I want to. My favorite music seemed to slip away from me. The only songs I sang over and over were baby songs and humming sounds I invented in my head. I'm not saying I lost my love for music because of motherhood, it was always there but I wasn't embracing it as much as I had in the past. I realized too that childbirth can change your voice because mine got deeper - like two musical notes down, and it got so frustrating and sad because I can't sing higher notes anymore. And then suddenly I just stopped singing. I stopped trying. But it didn't stop me from listening and appreciating the evolution of music. 

And now as I think back and reminisce about the good old days and all the men in my life who contributed to my love for music and singing, I realized that music can love you back. When you hear that certain song you liked so much, it can take you away and bring you back to that special place where you felt that special feeling forever etched in your heart. Melody and Rythm can uplift your spirits. A song can comfort you at your darkest moments. Lyrics can express what you cannot say to someone. Music brings people together. I married someone who loves to sing too and I envy his ability to sing high-pitched songs. It also goes without saying, I am blessed with talented girls who each have the heart for music. It's a whole new generation for me once again and I am absolutely loving music all over again.