clark trip

cheska forcing a smile for the camera. good thing we came prepared. this was taken around 7:00 a.m.(we got in at 6:30ish). there were still a few balloons taking off or getting ready to take off and we got lucky we made it before the balloons left. it would be such a bummer if we didn't.

more photo updates soon!

You have lost me forever

 

did i mention that i'm a huge fan of

vampire diaries? especially damon?

you do realize that

if i fell

 

i have a reader

an anonymous reader sent me a message and wanted me to comment about angelo reyes. i am actually surprised that i even have a reader/s out there and a little embarrassed to be honest. this blog is a personal journal and created to inspire myself, my family, and people who can relate. this is not intended to impress anyone. i am not the know-it-all-type. i don't even write very well for crying out loud. i have become addicted to blogging because i have noticed that blogging can be an art. apparently, not all bloggers are geeks.

but, since it was requested, let me just say this, a person will only take his own life because he has a sick brain to begin with. he did it because he was ashamed of what he did, felt extreme guilt, lost his way, victimized, and most of all an embarrassment and burden to his family eventually. all these emotional feelings mixed up altogether made his brain release some sort of a "suicide hormone". he was too brave actually and did not fear death. it was a sad day for his family and that's all i can say. i do feel sorry he felt there was no way out. 

Lately

I've been posting a lot of quotes and photos inspiration from the net and haven't really blogged about my weekly activities or life in general except when there are occasions like birthdays and stuff. Nothing really much exciting to say. I am not fully so open here because there are a few people who knows about this blog and I may say things that are inappropriate or hurt their feelings because I think I have a tendency to offer unsolicited advice and suggest things that are not applicable to them. So mostly I would post outer inspirations that help me express what I really feel, what I was going through at the time. I don't know how I could have explained it better or eloquently without using these quotes because for obvious reasons I have grammar flaws

What I wish for myself is to be able to write about something genuinely good and happy. My current state is not so good so how do I share a little bit of what I wish for? hmm that's a problem. So instead, I linger on possibilities, wanting new things, simple things like new bedsheets, new rug, new bag, new dress, new jeans, skirt, a camera, new lipstick, a necklace, and all fancy things. Am i materialistic? I don't know, maybe I am or maybe I'm just a woman who enjoys these things. If i was rich I would probably wish for bigger things. I am always living in my head. Dreaming. 

 

I need this reminder. I need to tell me that my life is beautiful. 

If I want to change it, then what's stopping me?

Cheer up!

 

Birthday Girl

how time flies!
my dear sweet, smart, and lovely little girl turned 8 today. 
it only seems like yesterday when i first saw your chubby cheeks 
and look at you now.
every year on her birthday, i always intend to give her what she deserves
because she's been a very well behaved, funny pretty girl
who we love so much. 
soon she will be all grown up and won't need me as much.
Happy Birthday my dear Saskia Francesca
We love you so very much!
You are always beautiful everyday, sweetie! 

 from left: agatha, cheska, larence( her classmate) 

and the cute little 3 years old joshua

this time on the left is jaimee- who is sick, naomi at the back,
and baby beatrix and alyssa.

and of course, with her lovely mom. ehem.

i am still contemplating on throwing a big party for her
because she has not had a "real" party since she was small.
last time we gave her one was when she was 4 years old and only a few came.
i hope i can plan it better next time.

Untitled

i guess i have been thinking too much (as always of course). you can tell by the entries of my posts. these are things that come to mind when i need to let out and let go, and it's nice to have this place where i can do that.  i' wonder if it has anything to do with my hormones. when i am not in front of my laptop, most times, everything sounds so much more organized and better in my head, but the minute i start typing it i get lost for words and ideas for no reason.

and today is just one of them.

pause...

and so,  instead, 

i would like to end this post with a song i like since high school. what can i say? i am a sentimental girl with sentimental taste.

Almost Lover

me. believe it or not.

be humble

sorry. i stand corrected so i had to delete previous post.

i just want peace in my heart that's all.

internet-window-shopping

 my hands, my eyes, and my imagination 

aches for these things

a stack of BOOKS

an SLR

 a BOHO FRINGE Bag

fringebag is the latest trend in Philippine street fashion as far as i know,
but it was actually a 2010 mid-year trend in the US.
when i saw an acquaintance wearing this fringebag and the whole get up
i instantly became jealous and wanted to buy and wear one over my shoulder asap
because i was (forever) contemplating buying and wearing this boho fringe style.

but i also always like the classic ones too.

the black, the red and the white.

and this sweater!

and LAUREN CONRAD'S style

just because

i have absolutely no motivation to get out of bed, but i did because i had to. my youngest daughter was hot last night so i decided to bring her to a doctor because everyone in the house either got sick, or is sick, except me. 
 _ _ __ ___ ___ __  __ __  __ _  _ ____ __ _ __ _____ ____ ______ ____  __  _ _ _____ ____ __ ___

Just because your life stops, doesn't mean that the world stops with you. Only you and you alone can save yourself. i actually tell this to myself. but what happens when you're tired of feeling the same things all over again? people change. 
#@#x%*#!!! this mood needs to go away. 
but even though i am like this i am still the eternal optimist.

so crappy day please go away!

at a wedding

this is me enjoying my sparkling white wine.

 

i ♥ interior design

i love how these old wood designs are incorporated to contemporary designs. 

it is such a very awesome concept and trend for 2011- mixing old and new.

 the photo above is one of my favorite. it looks old yet sophisticated.

 

it's a dream of mine to be able to decorate my own house 

and fully use what's left of my creativity.

i realized i should have taken an interior design course instead of advertising. 

stay tuned for more!

♥ her style

 reese witherspoon and kirsten dunst

are one of those actresses i don't find particularly pretty enough
and yet they have been my top favorites.
i liked kristen dunst from the crazy beautiful movie.
she has this crazy curves and bikini body that i envy.
and i love reese for her sense of daily style.

Damon

 

I should like you more often

Stuck

when my mind wanders I want it to go to a good place. I work during the day and have no time to blog, only at night or on weekends. I feel most comfortable and happy here writing my feelings away or browsing inspirations. It gives me freedom. Though I find it difficult lately to organize my thoughts and what I would want to share when different ideas come all at the same time. It feels overwhelming sometimes. I don't know if you ever felt that - feeling kind of stuck while inspirations are piling up.

 how do you do it?

Hello 2011!

A New Year. A fresh start. A chance to organize. Another year older and hopefully smarter. Another twelve long months of new things. An opportunity yet again! A year to cherish, cuddle and laugh. A year to kiss sadness goodbye. A chance to be loved.  And most of all, A clean slate. Farewell 2010.
 I learned a lot from you.
Cheers!