Tantrums

feeling a little bit off the last couple of weeks and it is obviously shown around here. i always blame it on the hormones. yes, female hormone is usually the culprit for this type of unexplained sudden mood switch. this is how we are wired from conception until we reach the age of 45 according to Louann Brizendine M.D author of this intriguing book The Female Brain. 

i am very familiar with this craziness and i know it will pass, but when i am in it, it's always a little harder than usual but i know I'll bounce back to my old giddy self soon. i'm just lucky i have a family who can always make me laugh especially my little one. and here i thought i had the worst sunget kid until i recently witnessed nicole's tantrums. as parents we all go through this and we eventually learn to handle it. this is the reason why with cheskas i am a little calmer. my eldest would often say i am spoiling her, and maybe unconsciously i have. i'm a hands on mom with my two eldest daughters when they were little, and look at them now, they are all grown up and soon they won't be needing me as much as they needed me when they were kids. soon they will have their own decisions to make. i won't be the "boss" in their lives anymore. the one who makes decisions for them like what clothes to wear, what movies to watch, what food to eat, the one who reminds them to do their chores before they can go out and hang out with friends. so dealing with my youngest daughter now i simply just want to enjoy her unique self - her ability to make me smile when she rolls her eyes while i try to explain and teach her something, her standard so-not-speaking-to-you attitude when she doesn't get what she wants because she can't boss me around and a few couple of tricks she learned to convince me to say YES (music to her ears). her little throw fits amuses me. adults throw tantrums too, and sometimes even worse. i have learned my lessons and i have so much control over my temper now. time is very fast. our little babies will magically grow up in our eyes and these funny, annoying temper tantrums will just be one of those memories we laugh and share over dinner one day.

so when your little brat throws a fit at you, never (ever!) be violent with them. breathe...
tantrums are a fact of life when you have kids. deal with it gracefully. i know i have.

First Grade 4th Honor .

Cheska was being stubborn and moody all because she didn't like her hair style.

i still find it adorably cute.

Explore

 

enjoy the little things in life

for one day 

you may look back and realize

they were the big things

blog digest

for those who are obsessed with vintage inspired interior design, here's a link of furniture makeover that will inspire you to keep your old furniture you have inherited from your lola's (grandma).

visit this website: Better After

have you heard about TOM's shoes?  

i am not so  much a fan of  these shoes but i stumbled upon 

this lovely blog and wanted to share it with you

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"With every pair sold, TOMS donates a new pair of shoes to a child in need"

sometimes

what we sometimes need is just a damn good cry.

we are so bottled up
and so much has been happening and going

through our minds that it's frustrating.

for us girls, this is how we are made up

and it gets the best of us.

a good cry will make us feel tons better.

sometimes we just need one.

need you now

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I just need you now.

Oh baby I need you now.

 NEED YOU NOW official video 

thought bubbles

this week...

weight

ok. so i never realized just how much i gained weight since last year (and the year before that, and the year before that) whenever i complain about it, some people would tell me i don't need it, i am perfectly fine. i wonder if they were just being polite. but you see, i really did gain weight over the last couple of years i just hide it better than anyone else. i used to like taking pictures of myself until recently. and it just hit me right freaking now. i was not a believer until i saw recent pictures of myself. it's frustrating already how i always make up excuses to start dieting. there is a constant reminder in my head "tomorrow i will start my diet" or "i only need two weeks to lose 10 pounds anyway so it's okay to pig out right now". i am 5'4" and weigh more or less 125 pounds, and i only need to lose at least 15 pounds. for some people they may find it very shallow and silly of me for complaining about my weight. i didn't say i am overweight, i only said i gained weight and i care about how i look because i like to wear clothes that would fit me perfectly. so the ultimate question is, when do i stop procrastinating and finally start losing weight?

casey abrams

oh casey, casey. i agree with jLO, you are so sexy. he absolutely made me smile throughout the whole song when he sang your song by elton john.

when he was voted out, i wasn't really shocked because this season they have sent home potentially great singers, and sadly casey is just one of them. but then the judges saved him! yay! it's good to know that the judges felt the american fans made a bad choice. ( i am not going to elaborate more, it's googleable if you are interested to know more about casey) please check out the video above though.

sleep paralysis

i recently found out through google that what i have been experiencing is called sleep paralysis. thank God i am not the only who suffers from it.  for a while i thought it was something i should learn to live with, then my condition became more consistent like twice in a month. i had an episode again a few days ago and i started worrying and wondering what could have triggered it. also, when i go through this frightening  experience, i panic and scream for help but only in my head.

 Here's a brief explanation of sleep paralysis
Have you ever felt like you were awake but unable to move? 

You might have even felt afraid but could not call for help? 

This condition is called sleep paralysis. 
Sleep Paralysis is possibly a hereditary disorder in which 
one experiences very frightening seconds or minutes
of total body paralysis with little respiration and eye movements. 
A victim in this state feels awake, but he cannot move or speak  

Sleep paralysis may leave you feeling frightened, 

especially if you also see or hear things that aren't really there. 

Sleep paralysis may happen only once, or you

may have it frequently - even several times a night.

The good news: sleep paralysis is not considered a dangerous health problem.

QUOTE of the day

 

life's lessons 

Everything we are inside is obvious from the outside.

It pours out in everything we say and do.

So be the same person no matter who's watching. 

 ♥ ♥ ♥

i ♥ fashion

I have very few Pinoy blogs that I know and I also have not made an effort to reach out to some of them. I feel like I'm still new at this and would like to learn the rules. There's a line in the Easy A movie that says: Mr. Griffith (Thomas Haden Church): "I don't know what your generation's fascination is with documenting your every thought...but I can assure you, they're not all diamonds. "Roman is having an OK day, and bought a Coke Zero at the gas station. Raise the roof." Who gives a rat's ass?" 

Yeah, who gives a rat's ass? I guess I pretty much agree with the line, but I also feel guilty for doing exactly what he said- documenting my thoughts, dreams, feelings, opinions and whatnot.  

I like to share things about fashion. I like to update people with what I think is trending. So for fashion's sake let me share this.

I have seen a lot of feather earrings on the web

  i haven't seen anyone in the malls or the streets wearing this feather earrings,

but if anyone knows where i can buy this type of earrings please let me know.

i want to buy for my girls. i'm sure (and hoping) this feather earrings are cheap. 

first time, first run, oh what feeling is this ♪♫

this is me, after a 3k fun run experience with walking and running in between.

just wanted to let you all know,

i am a lazy walker, hence, i don't jog and i don't join marathons.

but since my dear cousin michelle invited me and my girls

to join their office event, i decided, heck, why not.

this is naomi and she's 14 years old. i am proud to say, this was her first fun-run experience and she was one of the first 100 who finished the 3k race. i' am not surprised at all because she is the sporty one in the family, although i was a little worried when she ran ahead of us with her sister alyssa. i was thinking, what's the worst thing that could happen in a "FUN RUN" right? i guess none. I'm just being a protective mom always looking out for the safety of my girls.  

but there is one funny story i would like to share.

a couple of minutes before the 3k batch started, there was a group of boys loudly making jokes. maybe trying to get some attention so the girls would notice them. they went in front of  alyssa and naomi at the start line. when the race began, these boys ran wildly like little kids (these are teens by the way) a couple of minutes later, naomi caught up with these guys and she ran past them. when they saw naomi, the boys suddenly and excitedly tried to follow her but they couldn't keep up with her pace, so they stopped and started walking again as they gasped for air. i was like all smiles when chi and alyssa told me about this encounter with the boys.

after the race everybody was up for breakfast 
which is always a good reward after some hard work.
for me that was really tough (and hard work). i have never done it 
before so i needed some reward. haha. 

that same day, 
we had the privilege of learning to play golf for free!

pictures taken at intramuros golf course and country club. 

everyone had an awesome golfing experience. 

and we shall return! we hope so!

lovely decors

these beautiful interior designs and decors caught my attention 

so i decided to do a quick post before i leave for work.

words of inspiration

N E V E R  S T O P

hopeful

is hopeful that things will be okay soon.

follow me

Today I started following Pinoy bloggers. I randomly picked two blogs, one of them is thedramaqueencantellstories. I started checking out other Filipino bloggers. I found some that are simple but most are very general related to things I found on the web. I wish I could write very well like them. I do not possess the ability to effortlessly write my to day to day experiences and ideas. Finding inspiration does help me get rid of the mentality of "I'm just not a writer".

Since I've gone public with my blog, I decided to make some changes. I am going to make an effort to be more open to the idea that my blog can be viewed by random citizens. With a warning, I have a tendency to be cranky and bitter and the person I usually talk to is ME :) I argue with myself, I mutter about my laziness and stupid mistakes, I smile, I laugh, I sigh- a lot, and roll my eyes☺. It seems life is never enough. But in spite of all these entries being sad and feeling lost or whatever, I still consider myself as the lucky one who can take emotions and turn it into an inspiration. There are situations far worse than mine, so why shouldn't I be waking up smiling everyday?

fashion update

flared jeans is back!

also better known as bell-bottoms if you ask a sales lady at the malls here

but there is actually a difference between the two.  

 

flares are fitted from the hip through the knee

and slightly flares or spread outward to the bottom.

while bell bottoms are ridiculously wider.

good thing i still have my old flare jeans and didn't sell 

them when i recently had a garage sale at our house.

i like the flare style better than skinny jeans 

because it's more comfy.

so go out and wear your flare jeans now! 

  

today

i am craving for, 

good morning!

weekend recap

here's a recap of  my weekend:

(the dreadful) friday night.

aside from watching cnn to keep myself updated with the news about the tsunami 

that was supposed to arrive in the Philippines 9:55 GMT (around 5:55-6ish pm our time), 

i diverted my thoughts on watching american idol via youtube. (our cable sux)

 my favorite is casey abrams. 

i hated randy for choosing ashton, while jLo picked stefano

instead of robbie rosen.

 he is a very very talented musician-song writer and i think
has what it takes to be the next american idol, really. 
and he's really a sweetheart! 
i actually thought of him as the next barry manilow.
i do not understand why these judges didn't pick him. 

 saturday

 my kids are now able to enjoy this game with the portable DSi.

it's addictive! it's like i am taken back to my childhood and learning all
the techniques all over again! cheska is actually better than me. 

of course i haven't played this game for a long time and the levels are not easy.

 i was even bragging that i can beat them.

well, i haven't. yet.

  

and on sunday night 

 not as bad as i expected from renee zellweger.

case 39 is better than the last exorcism (this movie is awful),

but not as good as orphan.  

hope y'all had a great weekend! 
 

Photoscape

once again, i love the vintage look.

these are fake old pictures using a vintage effect from a picture enhancer.

cool right? some of the pictures here were taken just a couple of years ago. 

i like my photo. it looks as if i really was in the 50's.

Tsunami in Japan 2011

I am hesitant to post something as heartbreaking as this, but I feel it is something that we should all think about and ask ourselves how we are ever going to cope up if this sudden catastrophe happens to our country or any place we live in with our loved ones? just by thinking about it makes me feel helpless.

I really hope and pray that every country, every government, every citizen, is doing their part to save our old and very sick Earth. I wish our government is doing something about it. This devastating tragedy is the very example of our ignorance. We need to help raise the environmental consciousness esp. here in our country. so please please, for the sake of our future wake up and do good deeds for mother earth. Plant a tree, stop smoking, stop buying bottled water, eat vegetables more than meat,  (and why if you may ask? because meat poultry business is using a  large scale of our forest land/deforestation)  little things like these are actually huge steps for saving the lives of our kids and their future. so act now before it's too late!

 there is still

and you learn

After a while you learn

The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
And company doesn’t always mean security.
And you begin to learn
That kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises
And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes ahead
With the grace of a woman
Not the grief of a child  

And you learn
To build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow’s ground is
Too uncertain for plans
And futures have a way
Of falling down in mid flight
After a while you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get too much
So you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul
Instead of waiting
For someone to bring you flowers
And you learn
That you really can endure
That you are really strong
And you really do have worth
And you learn and you learn
With every good bye you learn.

Veronica A. Shoffstall

Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time
These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye 
This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time 
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand
This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time