Almost Lover

me. believe it or not.

be humble

sorry. i stand corrected so i had to delete previous post.

i just want peace in my heart that's all.

internet-window-shopping

 my hands, my eyes, and my imagination 

aches for these things

a stack of BOOKS

an SLR

 a BOHO FRINGE Bag

fringebag is the latest trend in Philippine street fashion as far as i know,
but it was actually a 2010 mid-year trend in the US.
when i saw an acquaintance wearing this fringebag and the whole get up
i instantly became jealous and wanted to buy and wear one over my shoulder asap
because i was (forever) contemplating buying and wearing this boho fringe style.

but i also always like the classic ones too.

the black, the red and the white.

and this sweater!

and LAUREN CONRAD'S style

just because

i have absolutely no motivation to get out of bed, but i did because i had to. my youngest daughter was hot last night so i decided to bring her to a doctor because everyone in the house either got sick, or is sick, except me. 
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Just because your life stops, doesn't mean that the world stops with you. Only you and you alone can save yourself. i actually tell this to myself. but what happens when you're tired of feeling the same things all over again? people change. 
#@#x%*#!!! this mood needs to go away. 
but even though i am like this i am still the eternal optimist.

so crappy day please go away!

at a wedding

this is me enjoying my sparkling white wine.

 

i ♥ interior design

i love how these old wood designs are incorporated to contemporary designs. 

it is such a very awesome concept and trend for 2011- mixing old and new.

 the photo above is one of my favorite. it looks old yet sophisticated.

 

it's a dream of mine to be able to decorate my own house 

and fully use what's left of my creativity.

i realized i should have taken an interior design course instead of advertising. 

stay tuned for more!

♥ her style

 reese witherspoon and kirsten dunst

are one of those actresses i don't find particularly pretty enough
and yet they have been my top favorites.
i liked kristen dunst from the crazy beautiful movie.
she has this crazy curves and bikini body that i envy.
and i love reese for her sense of daily style.

Damon

 

I should like you more often

Stuck

when my mind wanders I want it to go to a good place. I work during the day and have no time to blog, only at night or on weekends. I feel most comfortable and happy here writing my feelings away or browsing inspirations. It gives me freedom. Though I find it difficult lately to organize my thoughts and what I would want to share when different ideas come all at the same time. It feels overwhelming sometimes. I don't know if you ever felt that - feeling kind of stuck while inspirations are piling up.

 how do you do it?

Hello 2011!

A New Year. A fresh start. A chance to organize. Another year older and hopefully smarter. Another twelve long months of new things. An opportunity yet again! A year to cherish, cuddle and laugh. A year to kiss sadness goodbye. A chance to be loved.  And most of all, A clean slate. Farewell 2010.
 I learned a lot from you.
Cheers!

Holiday Reunions

oh oh i want some more

 

this song has been on my mind since christmas!

Happy Christmas Everyone!

so cute

one of my fondest childhood memories was sleeping beside my puppy sheila.
whenever there are new puppies at home i would always get the shy one 
from the bunch of newborn pups before my mom gets rid of them.
i bring her to my bed.
i love the smell of their puppy breath,
the feel of their cute little bodies and their tiny waggly tails.
of course, since i let them sleep beside me they pee on my bed too.
ye i know it's gross!
 that's why my mom hates having puppies inside our house
because they poop and pee everywhere. 
 but how can you resist that puppy look?
they are so cute!

♥ her style

i am an of Alexis Bleidel ever since i saw her on  Gilmore Girls (2000)

she  portrayed the role of this sweet, fast-talking, sarcastically witty teenager

that made the show popular.

she is stunningly beautiful and has the most amazing gorgeous blue eyes i have ever seen.

I think she would have made a perfect "Bella" for the Twilight series, 

perhaps more convincing than Kristen Stewart.

and i love that she has a great taste for fashion too. 

have you ever felt this way...

it's hard to put into words, but i guess 

it's like i was fast asleep, 
and someone came, disassembled me, 
and hurriedly put me back together again. 

 that sort of feeling.

Haruki Murakami

live to

truth be told

my work does not require me to be in the office every day but on workdays I stay up all night. otherwise, I don't wake up early like typical moms do. I am not a morning person. I sleep very late. I go to bed at around 2-3am and I have been sleeping at this time for the past few years, and many times it was even later than that. that's why mornings are a struggle that even coffee can't cure. I know it's really bad and I have to shake myself out of this habit. I am not sure what it is. maybe because I want too much out of my life and I want to do so many things but the laziness creeps up on me when I am frustrated and mad about something. I think I lost myself somewhere along the road and haven't really found my way back.

on a positive note, I think of myself as a multi-tasker. when I start doing things - mommy things (e.g. laundry, sorting, cleaning the room, cooking, dishes, groceries) I do it all at the same time because I want to get things done right away so I could finally do what I really want to do (e.g. reading, watching movies, and blogging). I admit I can be really lazy that I annoy people in the house. I have my reasons and most of them are truly valid reasons why I can't do things as expected of me. but despite the lazy attitude, I get things done and fast. that's who I am. I am selective of what I do, what I want, and can really be stubborn only because things are not easy for me. people I deal with every day are not easy.  the day to day stuff can either go really bad or turn out really good.

i knoow, i know better. no excuses for laziness. however, some people tend to be so overly judgemental about everything because it's just who they are. some are not as open-minded as you expect them to be. they judge, rant, nag, gossip and forget that people they talk about are in need of help and understanding. they make a bigger fuss about most things. I am so not like them. I am calmer and quieter, but I also have had some enraged moments that I am not proud of. I am not perfect and no one is. unfortunate things just happen around me and I try as best as I can to be mature about certain things in my life that I have no control of. maybe for others, they are what they are because of what goes on with their lives and I respect that, that's why I don't talk shit about them and their stuff especially behind their back. I understand that people make bad choices, good choices, simple choices and they shouldn't be judged based on their actions alone. we all have our reasons.

there is always hope. and I believe in hope. holding on to HOPE make things all better. I am just really thankful despite all the drama that's going on in my life, our girls are doing their part to make life easy for our family. I suppose being who they are now is a result of good parenting. yeah, yeah, some people may roll their eyes while reading this, but I think I did a pretty good job raising my kids. 

p.s. oh but I do wake up early on weekdays to prepare cheska for school.