despite being so often unsatisfied with my financial shortcomings, my thoughts and images are often colored with beautiful things about my girls, my love for arts, and memories of my youth. it is one thing i can rely on in my life. sometimes when i'm alone i think back as far as i can remember those vacations i spent at my grandparents house, summers in jordan, excursions with the whole castillo clan. these memories made me extremely happy as a child. all reunions are filled with excitement and lots of laughter, jokes here and there, singing and dancing, and our never ending traditional games and of course our traditional food.
But, life changed since then. and i miss all the happy memories our family shared for a long time, especially those who have passed away. our family is still together, or at least i'd like to think so. we have a huge family and there are challenges when extended families get together. other families have conflicts with their husbands or their wives and most often than not their issues affect other families too. i wish it didn't have to be that way, but it is what it is now. the only hope for this family to be able to move on from damaged relationships, is to really make an effort to appreciate what we have and acknowledge our mistakes. it's hard to forgive each other when nobody wants to admit their faults and quite frankly, i don't know if it's ever going to happen. maybe not today, maybe soon, or maybe not for a long long time, but i really hope it goes back to what it used to be.
it's for our next generation's sake. don't you agree?