running

ok i need to remind myself that i should still be in the diet phase.

the past few days i'm eating like i don't get filled up again.

i eat whatever i see in the fridge, whatever comes to mind,

and craving like a pregnant woman- only am not, i swear.

by this time i should be able to control myself and

having all these birthdays are not helping me focus!

maybe now is the best time to start a running habit. 

just thinking about it makes me lazy.

a little inspiration surely helps.

move out

i haven't been sleeping well at all at nights for a long time now, i'm beginning to consider taking sleeping pills just to get some really good sleep. free of worry, total and complete brain rest. i've been worrying a lot and i think the stress is already showing.

i want to do so many things. i want to clean our room and throw out all the clothes and shoes that should never be worn again. i want to pack and organize everything, buy new stuff and make our small room look really neat and nice. we have a very small room and our things are just impossible to fit in. i need more space. i need closets and dressers. i need a new room.

we've been living like this for a long time and it's about time to move out.

exam week

it's going to be a very busy week ahead because it's exam week!
my two young teens have been studying really hard. alyssa for her upcat test and naomi for the quarterly exams. saskia is, well, we goof around most of the time while reviewing. she's a smart kid. so she always manage get high grades.

i'm showing this picture of saskia annoyed at me for trying to steal a nice shot of her while checking some art and crafts book at national bookstore. she's been avoiding the camera ever since she saw her picture on my blog.

 first attempt

cheska: mommy! i don't like! 

you're just going to show it on your blog!

mommy: just one shot baby.

cheska: nooo! (annoyed) 

second attempt 

cheska: i knew it! mommy!

mommy: fine, ok no more, promise.  

i guess, no means no.

my passion

one of the great things that have come along with blogging is my passion for photography, and arts and interior designs. i took up fine arts advertising which i now realize it should have been interior design. i wasn't able to graduate because i got pregnant and started a family at a young age. in other words, my passion for arts was abruptly halted. so seeing people who are mad crazy about their passion, especially with the help of technology, has left me wondering, am i too old for this and maybe already too late to even start now?

i love blogging. and i am so overwhelmed because there are lots of passion, talents, great style and taste flying around out here in the blog world, at times i feel maxed out with all the creativeness i come across from surfing the web. to see how they have achieved so much and how well they put things together, it completely makes me feel very insecure about how i do my own thing here. and to be honest, it's the reason behind the lack of posts lately. i know i shouldn't be feeling this way. it's a shame that i do.

i guess what i wanted to say is, i am still finding out what i really want. but not just for myself anymore, but for my family. it is still all there and out there and all i have to do choose and make it work. i am forever thankful that blogging existed when i needed it the most. inspiration is a very strong motivation. 

i know i am going to be happy wherever life takes me and i want to put it in writing about what i feel now.

i recently created another blog account for a project i am working on. no financial help from anyone, nothing.  just passion and lots and lots of positive thinking :)