Friday, February 25, 2011

fashion trend update

the maxi dresses are back!


being wrong

....but i hate being wrong
....i fear being wrong

clark trip

cheska forcing a smile for the camera. good thing we came prepared. this was taken around 7:00 a.m.(we got in at 6:30ish). there were still a few balloons taking off or getting ready to take off and we got lucky we made it before the balloons left. it would be such a bummer if we didn't.

more photo updates soon!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

You have lost me forever


did i mention that i'm a huge fan of
vampire diaries? especially damon?

Monday, February 21, 2011

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Thursday, February 10, 2011


i have a reader

an anonymous reader sent me a message and wanted me to comment about angelo reyes. i am actually surprised that i even have a reader/s out there and a little embarrassed to be honest. this blog is a personal journal and created to inspire myself, my family and people who can relate. this is not intended to impress anyone. i am not the know-it-all-type. i don't even write very well for crying out loud. i have become addicted to blogging because i have noticed that blogging can be an art. apparently, not all bloggers are geeks.

but, since it was requested... let me just say, that a person will only take his own life because he has a sick brain to begin with. and, he did it because he was ashamed, guilty, lost, victim and most of all a burden to his family (eventually). all these emotional feelings mixed up altogether made his brain release some sort of a "suicide hormone". he was too brave (actually) and feared nothing and no one. that's what happened.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011


i have been posting a lot of quotes and photos from the internet lately and i haven't really blogged about what's going on with me, except when there are occasions like birthdays and stuff. nothing really much to say. i guess i am hesitant to open up because there are a few people who knows about this blog and i may say things that are inappropriate and hurt their feelings because i have a tendency to over analyze things. most often than not, when you're upset it's hard to know that you are being irrational when you cannot control it. so, am keeping it simple.

mostly, i would post outer inspirations that help me express what i really feel, what i was going through at that time which i couldn't express it in words. i don't know how i could have explained it better or eloquently. for obvious reasons, i have grammar flaws. and these are not common flaws, these are basic grammar flaws which i am aware, and it does bother me sometimes because i love sharing about random things. but anyhoo, my prepositions and whatnot problem didn't stop me from going public with this blog. 

what i wish for, is to be able to write about something good, and happy. my current state is not so good. so how do i share a little bit of what i wish for? hmmm. that's a problem. so you see, i haven't had a productive thoughts in days or even weeks. instead i have locked myself, lingered on possibilities, wanting new things ( new bedsheets, new rug, new bag, new dresses, new jeans, skirts, a camera, new lipstick, a necklace and all expensive, and fancy things and the list goes on). i am always living in my head. dreaming. (i would like to tell the world that i am a hot mess and not ashamed. i should be damn grateful about it.)
i need this reminder. i need to tell me that my life is beautiful. 
if i want to change it, then what's stopping me?

Monday, February 7, 2011

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Birthday Girl

how time flies!
my dear sweet, smart and lovely little girl turned 8 today. 
it only seems like yesterday that i went through that traumatic delivery
and look at her now.
every year on her birthday, i always intend and try to give her what she deserves
because she has been a very well behaved, smart and funny little pretty girl
who we love so much. 
soon she will be too grown up and she won't need me as much.
Happy Birthday my dear Saskia Francesca
We love you SO very much!
you get more beautiful everyday sweetie! 

 from left: agatha, cheska, larence( her classmate) 
and the cute little 3 years old joshua

this time on the left is jaimee- who is sick, naomi at the back,
and baby beatrix and alyssa.

and of course, with her lovely mom. ehem.

i am contemplating throwing (still) a party for cheska,
because she has not had a "real" party since she was small.
last time we gave her one was when she was 4 years old, and no one really came.
unfortunately they we're all busy and away.
so to make up for all that, i still plan to give her a birthday party
(whatever it takes. even if i have to swallow my pride)

Tuesday, February 1, 2011


i guess i have been thinking too much (as always of course). you can tell by the entries of my posts. these are things that come to mind when i need to let out and let go, and it's nice to have this place where i can do that.  i' wonder if it has anything to do with my hormones. when i am not in front of my laptop, most times, everything sounds so much more organized and better in my head, but the minute i start typing it- i get lost for words and ideas for no reason.

and today is just one of them.


and so,  instead, 

i would like to end this post with a song i like since high school. what can i say? i am a sentimental girl with sentimental taste.