Tuesday, April 5, 2011

thought bubbles

this week...

ok. so i never realized just how much i gained weight since last year (and the year before that, and the year before that) whenever i complain about it, some people would tell me i don't need it, i am perfectly fine. i wonder if they were just being polite. but you see, i really did gain weight over the last couple of years, i just hide it better than anyone else. i used to like taking pictures of myself until recently. and it just hit me. right freaking now. i was not a believer until i saw recent pictures of myself. it's frustrating already how i always make up excuses to start dieting. there is a constant reminder in my head "tomorrow i will start my diet" or, "i only need two weeks to lose 10 pounds anyway so it's okay to pig out right now". i am 5'4" and weigh, more or less 125 pounds, and i only need to lose at least 15 pounds. for some people they may find it very shallow and silly of me for complaining about my weight (i'm not saying i am overweight, i only said i gained weight) but i care about how i look because i like to wear clothes that would fit me perfectly. (what's wrong with that?) so the ultimate question is, when do i stop procrastinating and finally start losing weight?

casey abrams
oh casey, casey. i agree with jLO, you are so sexy. he absolutely made me smile throughout the whole song when he sang your song by elton john.

when he was voted out, i wasn't really shocked because this season they have sent home potentially great singers, and sadly casey is just one of them. but then the judges saved him! yay! it's good to know that the judges felt the american fans made a bad choice. ( i am not going to elaborate more, it's googleable if you are interested to know more about casey) please check out the video above though.

sleep paralysis
i recently found out through google that what i have been experiencing is called sleep paralysis. thank God i am not the only who suffers from it.  for a while i thought it was something i should learn to live with, then my condition became more consistent like twice in a month. i had an episode again a few days ago and i started worrying and wondering what could have triggered it. also, when i go through this frightening  experience, i panic and scream for help but only in my head.

 Here's a brief explanation of sleep paralysis
Have you ever felt like you were awake but unable to move? 
You might have even felt afraid but could not call for help? 
This condition is called sleep paralysis. 
Sleep Paralysis is possibly a hereditary disorder in which 
one experiences very frightening seconds or minutes
of total body paralysis with little respiration and eye movements. 
A victim in this state feels awake, but he cannot move or speak  
Sleep paralysis may leave you feeling frightened, 
especially if you also see or hear things that aren't really there. 
Sleep paralysis may happen only once, or you
may have it frequently - even several times a night.
The good news: sleep paralysis is not considered a dangerous health problem.

QUOTE of the day

life's lessons 
Everything we are inside is obvious from the outside.
It pours out in everything we say and do.
So be the same person no matter who's watching. 

 ♥ ♥ ♥

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